I just made a decision I would regret but shouldn’t because really it was just a chance that would have given me a chance to live somewhere.

I just have to tell myself that there were other 2 interviews I’d have to pass and I’m worse at that. Surely it would fail. F*ck the what ifs.

God I hate me.

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meggiecleary:

queensansastark asked Theon Greyjoy or Sandor Clegane  ↠ Theon Greyjoy

❝  The sounds brought old feelings back; the creak of wood and rope, the captain’s shouted commands, the snap of the sails as the wind filled them, each as familiar as the beating of his own heart, and as comforting. I must remember this, Theon vowed to himself. I must never go far from the sea again.

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aseaofquotes:

Susanna Kaysen, Girl, Interrupted

aseaofquotes:

Susanna Kaysen, Girl, Interrupted

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ericscissorhands:

My variant of: (X)

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humansofnewyork:

"I’m a neuroscience researcher.""If you could give one piece of advice to a large group of people, what would it be?""Listen to your inner voice.""You’re a scientist. Isn’t ‘inner voice’ a spiritual term?""Bullshit! You’ll hear scientists talking about following their inner voice as much as you’d hear a musician or a priest.""So how do you know which of your thoughts are your true inner voice?""All of them are! The question is— how much weight do you give them? How much authority do you give your own thoughts? Are you taking them seriously? Or are you sitting in front of the damn tube letting other people tell you what to think?"

humansofnewyork:

"I’m a neuroscience researcher."
"If you could give one piece of advice to a large group of people, what would it be?"
"Listen to your inner voice."
"You’re a scientist. Isn’t ‘inner voice’ a spiritual term?"
"Bullshit! You’ll hear scientists talking about following their inner voice as much as you’d hear a musician or a priest."
"So how do you know which of your thoughts are your true inner voice?"
"All of them are! The question is— how much weight do you give them? How much authority do you give your own thoughts? Are you taking them seriously? Or are you sitting in front of the damn tube letting other people tell you what to think?"

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Tell me…

am I the only one who suck at this, being an adult?

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The thing about life…

is that it’s in our hands. If we have shitting hands it’s gonna be shitty.

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Holy Crap

I am in panic/depressed/suicidal mode. All I could think of is I need to find an out from this. I concentrate on running away. I know what’s gonna happen. I know for sure that I am not gonna get that job in Samsung but what do I do? I planned nothing but to show up for the exam over there without thinking about where I’m gonna stay, or what I’m gonna eat. it is frustrating to say the least. I hate it when I’m just nothing but a walking useless shit!

I need to clean this life of mine. What can I really do? and what do I wish for?

REALITY:

I am bankrupt. I have 500 bucks in my bank account.  Pure shit! I have debts to my Ate. more than 500 dollars. I fucking hate my life! I want to commit suicide because of this and NOT commit suicide because of this. FUUUUUCK! To make it short I have huge money problems which stops me from going back to that money sucking Manila.

I need to save money while I’m here in Davao. I need to find a job that would bring in the money. Because it is a necessity. The coward in me is stopping me from doing this shit. Also, because I am fucking hanging in that hope that I might be able to get that job in Samsung!

WISHFUL THINKING:

I really do wish to get that Samsung job. It pays well enough to allow me to stay in a small place alone. That’s also another thing that stops me from going to Manila. I just can’t live with other people. I mess things up. A perfectly “okay” situation will be ruined in my head and eventually ruin everything.

I need to plan this shit and follow through. FUUUUUUUUUCK. I am so scared. What if I finally find the courage to end my life.

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